2024 TOP
1. Joshua Oppenheimer “The End”
2. Francis Ford Coppola “Megalopolis”
3. Joachim Lang "Führer und Verführer(Führer and Demagogue)"
4. Casey Nicholaw "The book of Mormon"
5. Michael Lockshin “The Master and Margarita”
6. Yorgos Lanthimos “Kind of kindness”
7. Robert Eggers “Nosferatu”
8. Oliver Hirschbiegel “The angelface/Das Engelsgesicht”
9. Brady Corbet “The Brutalist”
10. Mikael Håfström "Stockholm Bloodbath"
11. Sean Baker "Anora"
12. Klaus Härö “Ei koskaan yksin”
13. M Night Shyamalan "Good Grades/Trap"
14. Vaclav Marhoul “McCarthy”
15. Ti West “MaXXXine”
16. Joe Talbot “The Governesses”
17. Alex Garland “Civil War”
18. Sam Taylor-Johnson "Back to black"
19. Guy Ritchie "The Ministry of Ungentlemanly Warfare"
20. Ron Howard "Eden/Origin of species"
21. Ali Abbasi "The apprentice"
22. Benoit Delhomme “Mothers' instinct”
23. Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia “Rich Flu”
24. Alonso Ruizpalacios “La Cocina/The kitchen”
25. Todd Phillips "Joker: folie a deux"
26. Cooper Raiff "The trashers"
27. Steve McQueen "Blitz"
28. Robert Zemeckis "Here"
29. Jon M. Chu "Wicked: part one"
30. Clint Eastwood “Juror #2"
31. Moonika Siimets “Must auk"
32. Michel Gondry "Atlantis"
33. Melanie Laurent “The nightingale”
34. Erik Poppe "Quisling"
35. Bruno Dumont “L'Empire/The Empire”
36. Jon Watts “Wolves”
37. Timothy Scott Bogart “Verona”
38. Henrik Martin Dahlsbakken “X”
39. Albert Serra "The Valkyrie"
40. Jaak Kilmi "Vari"
41. Frida Kempff "Rootsi torpeedo"
42. Marielle Heller “Nightbitch”
43. Denis Villeneuve “Dune: Part Two”
44. Peter Bebjak "Prague spring"
45. T.C. Christensen “Escape from Germany”
46. Jacques Audiard “Emilia Perez”
47. Jeremy Saulnier “Rebel ridge”
48. Pealkirjata Trey Edward Shults'i film
49. Tiina Lymi “Stormskerry Maja/Stormskärs Maja”
50. Malcolm Washington “The Piano lesson”
51. Barry Levinson “Wise Guys/Alto knights”
52. Zach Cregger “Weapons”
53. Julian Schnabel “In the hands of Dante”
54. Francois Ozon “Quand Vient L’Automne”
55. Jim Jarmusch "Father mother sister brother"
56. Paul Schrader "Oh Canada"
57. John Crowley "We live in time"
58. Joseph Kosinski pealkirjata Formula 1 Film
59. Lynne Ramsay "Polaris"
60. Zellner brothers "Sasquatch Sunset" (Sundance2024)
61. Luca Guadagnino “Challengers”
62. Daniel Minahan “On swift horses”
63. Nia DaCosta “Hedda”
64. Michael Pearce “Echo valley”
65. Pablo Larrain “Maria”
66. Kantemir Balagov “Butterfly jam”
67. Scott Derrickson “The gorge”
68. Duke Johnson “The actor”
69. Eli Roth/Tim Miller “Borderlands”
70. Justin Kurzel “The order”
71. Kirill Serebrennikov “Limonov: the ballad of Eddie"
72. Natalie Erika James "Apartment 7A"
73. Suzanna Fogel “Winner” (Sundance2024)
74. Edward Berger "Conclave"
75. David Michod “Wizards!”
76. Kevin Costner “Horizon 1&2”
77. Julia von Heinz "Treasure" (Berliin2024)
78. Greg Berlanti "Project Artemis"
79. Alejandro Monteverde “Cabrini”
80. Sara Sugarman/Jonas Åkerlund “Midas Man”
81. Paolo Sorrentino “Parthenhope”
82. Andrea Arnold’s “Bird”
83. Gabriela Cowperthwaite "I.S.S."
84. Mimi Cave "Holland, Michigan"
85. Chao-Liang Huang “Yi dao tian tang/Heaven and hell”
86. Tilman Singer "Cuckoo" (Berliin2024)
87. Michael Showalter "The idea of you"
88. Mike Leigh "Hard truths"
89. Michael Fanco "Dreams"
90. Oliver Hermanus "The history of sound"
91. Alice Lowe “Timestalker”
92. Luca Guadagnino "Queer"
93. Coralie Fargeat "The substance"
94. Paul Greengrass "The hood"
95. David Cronenberg "The Shrouds"
96. James Mangold “Going Electric”
97. D'Innocenzo brothers "Dostoevsky" (Berliin2024)
98. Nora Fingscheidt "The outrun" (Sundance2024)
99. Coen Brothers “The Zebra Striped Hearse”
100. Alex Scharfman "Death of a Unicorn"
Doug Liman “Road House” (netis 21.03)
Ridley Scott "Gladiator 2"
James Hawes "The Amateur"
Gustav Möller "Vogter"
Ishana Shyamalan "The watchers"
Björn Runge "Let me count the ways"
Bille August "Me, you"
Leigh Whannell "The wolf man"
Lee Tamahori "Emperor"
Marko Raat "Biwa järve 8 nägu"
Tsai Ming-liang "Abiding Nowhere" (Berliin2024)
Zelda Williams "Lisa Frankenstein"
Johanna Pyykkö “Ebba”
Marc Noda “The lineman”
Tõnis Pill "Frank"
Johnny Depp "Modi"
David Michaels "The third parent"
Dev Patel “Monkey man”
Jonathan Kent “A long day's journey into night”
Anna Boden/Ryan Fleck “Freaky tales” (Sundance2024)
Lee Isaac Chung "Twisters"
Caitlin Cronenberg "Humane"
Mel Gibson "Passion of the Christ: Resurrection"
Tim Burton “Beetlejuice 2”
Terrence Malick “The Way of the Wind”
Peter Greenaway "Lucca Mortis"
Jia Zhang-ke “We shall be all”
Mark Molloy “Beverly Hills Cop: Axel Foley”
Kenji Kamiyama “The Lord of the Rings: The War of the Rohirrim”
George Miller “Furiosa”
Gareth Evans “Havoc”
Ethan Coen “Drive-Away Dolls”
Aaron Schimberg “A different man” (Sundance2024)
Osgood Perkins "Longlegs"
John Krasinski "If"
Leos Carax “C’est Pas Moi” (alla 1h film, Cannes?)
David Leitch "The Fall Guy"
David Ayer "The beekeeper"
Rose Glass "Love lies bleeding" (Sundance2024)
Jane Schoenbrun "I saw the TV glow" (Sundance2024)
Fede Alvarez "Alien: Romulus"
Reinaldo Marcus Green "Bob Marley: One love"
Adam Cooper "Sleeping dogs"
Potsy Ponciroli "Greedy people"
Kiyoshi Kurosawa "Serpent's path"
Lucile Hadzihalilovic “La tour de Glace”
Eva Sepping "Rändajad"
Pixar/Kelsey Mann “Inside Out 2”
Fernando Trueba “Haunted heart”
Gary Dauberman “Salem's lot”
Chris Sanders "The wild robot"
Rachel Morrison "Flint strong"
Audrey Diwan "Emmanuelle"
Gonzalo Lopez-Gallego “American star”
Irving Franco “Adam the first”
Simon Cellan Jones “Arthur the king”
John Ridley “Shirley”
Justin Baldoni "It ends with us"
Christophe Honore “Summer Boy”
Karim Ainouz “Rosebushpruning”
Olivier Assayas "Hors de temps"
Emmanuel Mouret “Une honnête femme”
Arkasha Stevenson "The first omen"
Wes Ball "Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes"
Barry Jenkins "Mufasa: the Lion King"
Tina Mabry "The Supremes at Earl’s All-You-Can-Eat"
Steven Soderbergh "Presence" (Sundance2024)
Kobi Libii "The American Society of Magical Negroes" (Sundance2024)
Max & Sam Eggers "The front room"
Martti Helde "Vara küps"
S.J. Clarkson "Madame Web"
David Lowery "Mother Mary"
Adrian Molina "Elio"
Liina Triškina-Vanhatalo "Emalõvi"
Klaus Menzel "What about love"
Kay Cannon "My ex-friend's wedding"
Michael Zaiko Hall "Peter five eight"
Jon Gunn "Ordinary angels"
John Stevenson "The ark and the Aardvark"
Paul Dektor "American dreamer"
Arnaud Desplechin “Spectateurs”
Andrew Stanton "In the blink of an eye"
Isaiah Saxon “The legend of Ochi”
Na Hong-jin "Hope"
Alain Guiraudie “Miséricorde”
Patricia Mazuy “Alma et Mina”
Carlos Reygadas "Wake of Umbra"
Dea Kulumbegashvili “Those Who Find Me”
Bi Gan “Resurrection”
Xavier Beauvois “La Vallée des Fous”
Marianne Elliott "The salt path"
Rebecca Lenkiewicz "Hot milk"
Sharon Maguire "Longbourn"
Tim Mielants "Small things like these"
Jane Anderson "Women in the castle"
Joachim Rønning "Young woman and the sea"
Howard J. Ford "DarkGame"
Graham Henman "Bone in the throat"
Derek Presley "Tonic"
Matthias Glasner "Sterben"
Lamberto Bava "Twins"
Ole Christian Madsen "Boundless/Den grænseløse"
André Téchiné "Dans le viseur"
Michael Rozek "Marianne"
Levan Akin “Crossing”
Timo Tjahjanto "The last train to New York"
James Strong "Anna"
Christine Jeffs “A mistake”
Flora Lau “Luz”
Helene Cattet/Bruno Forzani “Darling”
Isabel Sandoval “Tropical gothic”
Jaume Collet-Serra “Carry-on”
Jeremy Clapin "Pendant ce temps sur Terre/Meanwhile on earth" (Berliin2024)
Josh Gordon/Will Speck “Distant”
Juan Carlos Fresnadillo “Damsel” (netis 8.03)
Justin Anderson “Swimming home”
Kazik Radwanski "Matt and Mara"
Kuba Czekaj "Lipstick on the glass"
Lee Daniels “The deliverance”
Zoe Kravitz “Blink twice”
Lee Hong-chi "Love is a gun"
Marco Dutra “Bury your dead/Enterre seus Mortos”
Marco La Via/Hanna Ladoul “Funny birds”
Mareike Engelhardt “Rabia”
Johanna Moder “Motherhood”
Richard LaGravenese “A family affair”
Abderrahmane Sissako “The perfumed hill”
Sean Charmatz “Orion and the dark”
Robert Guedignan “La Pie Voleuse”
Andrew Patterson “Rivals of Amziah King”
Anthony&Joe Russo "Electric state"
Kyle Mooney "Y2K"
Gil Kenan "Ghostbusters: Frozen Empire"
Davis Simanis "Marijas klusums/Maria's Silence" (Berliin2024)
James Watkins "Speak no evil"
Dougal Wilson "Paddington in Peru"
Nicholas Stoller "You are cordially invited"
Pamela Adlon "Babes"
2023 FILMID, MIS VAJA VEEL NÄHA:
1. Karim Ainouz “Firebrand” (Cannes2023)
2. Ellen Kuras “Lee” (Toronto2023)
3. Richard Linklater “Hit man” (Veneetsia2023)
4. Viggo Mortensen “The dead don't hurt” (Toronto2023)
5. Zar Amir Ebrahimi/Guy Nattiv "Tatami" (Veneetsia2023)
6. Jeff Nichols “The Bikeriders” (Telluride2023)
7. Thea Sharrock “Wicked little letters” (Toronto2023)
8. Felipe Galvez “The Settlers” (Cannes2023)
9. Axel Petersen "Syndaboken" (Stockholm2023)
10. Bertrand Bonello “La Bete/The beast” (Veneetsia2023)
11. Anna Kendrick "Woman of the hour" (Toronto2023)
12. Atom Egoyan "Seven veils" (Toronto2023)
13. Louise Archambault "Irena's vow" (Toronto2023)
14. Marc Forster "White bird"
15. Henrik Martin Dahlsbakken “Konvoi”
16. Annie Baker "Janet planet" (Telluride2023)
17. Felipe Carmona "Prison in the Andes" (London2023)
18. Christy Hall "Daddio" (Telluride2023)
19. Ryusuke Hamaguchi "Evil does not exist" (Veneetsia2023)
20. Michael Winterbottom “Shoshana” (Toronto2023)
21. Lone Scherfig “The movie teller/La Contadora de Películas” (Toronto2023)
22. Azazel Jacobs “His three daughters” (Toronto2023)
23. Kristin Scott Thomas "North star" (Toronto2023)
24. Sally El Hosaini/James Krishna Floyd "Unicorns" (Toronto2023)
25. Andrew Durham “Fairyland” (Sundance2023)
26. Ivo van Hove "A little life"
27. Delphine Deloget "All to play for/Rien à perdre" (Cannes2023)
28. Michael Keaton "Knox goes away" (Toronto2023)
29. Anand Tucker “The critic” (Toronto2023)
30. Takeshi Kitano "Kubi" (Cannes2023)
31. Joseph Schuman/Austin Stark "Coup!"
32. Michael Shannon "Eric LaRue" (Tribeca2023)
33. Ethan Hawke "Wildcat" (Toronto2023)
34. Noah Pritzker "Ex-husbands" (San Sebastian2023)
35. Niclas Larsson “Mother couch” (Toronto2023)
36. Florian Schwartz "German Crime story: Deadlock"(filmiversioon)
37. Jeymes Samuel "The book of Clarence"
38. Christopher Walters “Comedy of war: Laughter in Ukraine” (Tribeca2023)
39. Hao Ning "The movie emperor"
40. Luc Besson “DogMan” (Veneetsia2023)
41. Tia Kouvo “Mummola/Family Time”
42. Brian Helgeland "Finestkind" (netis olemas)
43. Clair Titley "The contestant"
44. Pawo Choyning Dorji “The monk and the gun” (Telluride2023)
45. Quentin Dupieux “Yannick” (Locarno2023)
46. James Marsh “Dance first” (San Sebastian2023)
47. Ladj Ly "Les Indesirables"
48. Zacharias Mavroeidis "The summer with Carmen"
49. Lu Zhang "The shadowless tower" (netis olemas)
50. Lee Tamahori "The convert"
51. James Napier Robertson "Joika"
52. Saverio Costanzo “Finalemente L'Alba”
53. Zhang Yimou "Under the light" (netis olemas)
54. Cristi Puiu “MMXX” (San Sebastian2023) (pressikanalil)
55. Jan Holoubek "Doppelgänger. Sobowtor"
56. Dominic Savage "Close to you"
57. Luke Gilford "National anthem"
58. Robert Hloz "Restore point" (netis olemas)
59. John Thornblad “Sockerexperimentet” (netis olemas)
60. Sofia Exarchou "Animal" (pressikanalil)
61. Keat Aun Chong "Snow in midsummer"
62. Benjamin Renner “Migration” (Eestis kinos)
63. Daishi Matsunaga "Egoist"
64. Amjaad Al Rasheed "Inshallah a boy" (netis olemas)
65. Robert Lorenz “In the land of saints and sinners” (netis olemas)
66. Bill Oliver “Our son” (Tribeca2023, netis olemas)
67. Martin Bourboulon “Les trois mousquetaires - Milady” (Eestis kinos)
68. Sam Fell “Chicken Run: Dawn of the Nugget” (netis olemas)
69. Zack Snyder "Rebel Moon - Part One: A Child of Fire" (netis olemas)
70. Richard Holm “Avgrunden/The abyss” (netis olemas)
71. Brian Duffield "No one will save you"
72. Rebecca Miller “She came to me” (Berlinale2023, netis olemas)
73. Chelsea Peretti “First time female director” (Tribeca2023)
74. Luna Carmoon "Hoard"
75. Patricia Arquette "Gonzo girl"
76. William Friedkin “The Caine Mutiny Court Martial” (netis olemas)
77. Dustin Guy Defa “The Adults” (netis olemas)
78. Oskar Mellander "Canceled" (netis olemas)
79. Martin Zandvliet “Tove's room/Toves værelse” (netis olemas)
80. Greg Kwedar "Sing sing" (Toronto2023)
81. Martin Provost “Bonnard, Pierre and Marthe”
82. Christoph Hochhäusler “Bis ans Ende der Nacht/Till the end of the night” (Berlin2023)
83. Joao Canijo “Mal Viver/Bad Living”
84. Jonas Rothlaender “Power of love”
85. Lee Hae-young "Phantom/Yuryeong"
86. Elise Girard “Sidonie au Japon”
87. Pascal Plante “Les chambres rouges/Red rooms”
88. Julio Torres “Problemista”
89. Andreas Öhman “En dag kommer allt det här bli ditt” (netis olemas)
90. Imran J. Khan "Mustache"
91. Maria Lundqvist "Om att våga flyga"
92. Simon Sandquist "Karusell"
93. Chris Pine "Poolman"
94. Gabriel Abrantes “Amelia’s Children” (MOTELX2023, PÖFF2023)
95. Lars Kraume "Measures of men/Der vermessene Mensch"
96. Joe Stephenson “Doctor Jekyll”
97. Leigh Brooks “Hate to Love: Nickelback” doc (Toronto2023)
98. Cru Ennis, Lee Roy Kunz "Deliver us" (netis olemas)
99. Neil Burger "The Marsh king's daughter”
100. Xiaogang Gu “Dwelling by the lake/Cao mu ren jian”
101. Melanie Laurent “Wingwomen/Voleuses” (netis olemas)
102. Hur Jin-ho "A normal family"
103. Jeanne Herry "All Your Faces/Je verrai toujours vos visages"
104. Edward af Sillen “Ett sista race”
105. Ahmed Abdullahi "Amina"
106. Chris Kraus "15 years"
107. Edoardo De Angelis “Comandante” (Veneetsia2023-avafilm)
108. Karin af Klintberg “Kungen/The king”
109. Janis Pugh "Chuck chuck baby"
110. Frauke Finsterwalder “Sisi & I/Sisi & ich”
111. Bess Wohl “Baby Ruby”
112. Dominique Abel/Fiona Gordon “L'Etoile filante/The falling star”
113. Stephane Brize "Out of season"
114. Marja Pyykkö “Skimbagirls”
115. John Trengove “Manodrome” (netis olemas)
116. Maria Fredriksson "Miraklet i Gullspång"
117. Stephanie Di Giusto "La Rosalie"
118. Frederick Wiseman “Menus Plaisirs - Les Troisgros”
119. Angela Schanelec “Musik/Music”
120. David Gordon Green “The exorcist: Believer”
121. Vladimir Peršic "La honte/Lost country"
122. Martin Skovbjerg “København findes ikke/Copenhagen does not exist”
123. Trish Sie "Sitting in bars with cake"
124. Steffi Niederzoll "Seven years in Tehran"
125. Haydn Butler "Home kills"
126. Curtis Vowell "Seize them!"
127. Eric Besnard "Les choses simples"
128. Jeremy Garelick "Murder mystery 2"
129. Ali Asgari/Alireza Khatami "Terrestrial verses"
130. Mehmet Ada Öztekin "Atatürk 1881 - 1919"
131. Neill Blomkamp “Gran Turismo”
132. Chandler Levack “I like movies”
133. David Lowery “Peter Pan & Wendy”
134. Makoto Shinkai “Suzume” (netis olemas)
135. Wang Bing “Youth”(Cannes2023)
136. Michael Easterling/Jaala Ruffman "Deltopia"
137. Catherine Corsini “Le retour” (Cannes2023)
138. Isabel Coixet “Un amor” (San Sebastian2023)
139. Tim Story “The Blackening” (netis olemas)
140. Liu Jian "Art college 1994"
141. Ariel Vromen "April 29, 1992
142. Amat Escalante “El estado del imperio/Lost in the night” (Cannes2023)
143. Kim Jee-woon “Cobweb/The spider house” (netis olemas)
144. Kristin Gore/Damian Kulash "Beanie Bubble"
145. Erwan Le Duc "La fille de son pere/Daddy's girl"
146. Fabian Stumm “Knochen und namen/Bones and names”
147. Katell Quillevere "Le Temps d'aimer"(Cannes2023)
148. Coloreto Cukali "Within love"
149. Emily Atef “Someday we will tell each other everything/Irgendwann werden wir uns alles erzählen” (netis olemas)
150. Tibor Banocziki/Sarolta Szabo “White plastic sky”
151. Fernando Trueba/Javier Mariscal "They shot the piano player"
152. Aurora Gosse “Dancing queen”
VEELGI VARASEMATE AASTATE FILMID:
About Joan (netis olemas)
Allelujah (netis olemas)
Alma & Oskar
Amazing Maurice
Baltic truth
Before, now & then
Bröllop, begravning och sop (netis olemas)
Butcher's crossing (netis olemas)
Candy land
Comedy queen (netis olemas)
Daliland (netis olemas)
Dancing queens (netis olemas)
Der Maler/The painter (Hirschbiegleri dokk)
Die Stillen Trabanten/Dark satellites
Diorama (netis olemas)
Don Juan (2022)(netis olemas)
Dreamin' wild
Duran Duran - A Hollywood High
Elsker dig for tiden
Enys men (netis olemas)
Father and mother/Fædre & Mødre
Fixation
Fragments of the last will
Fucking with nobody (netis olemas)
Human flowers of flesh
Inland
It is in us all (netis olemas)
Koputus/The knocking
Krigsseileren/War sailor (tahaks filmina mitte telesarjana näha)
Kärleksbevis (netis olemas)
La Syndicaliste (netis olemas)
Lady Chatterley's lover (netis olemas)
Les Amandiers/Forever young
Loving Highsmith (netis olemas)
Maigret (netis olemas)
Marlowe (netis olemas)
Moving on (netis olemas)
Nika
Of an age (netis olemas)
One of these days (netis olemas)
Onoda: 10000 nights in the jungle
Out of the darkness 2/De forbandede år 2 (netis olemas)
Piggy (netis olemas)
Rebel (netis olemas)
Resurrection (netis olemas)
Rheingold (netis olemas)
Rosaline (netis olemas)
Sanctuary (netis olemas)
Scarlet/L'Envol
Seriously red (netis olemas)
Showing up (netis olemas)
Skin deep/Aus meiner haut
Substration (netis olemas)
The Integrity of Joseph Chambers (netis olemas)
The Pez outlaw (netis olemas)
The prank
Thomas vs. Thomas (A Sensational Theory Regarding an Insignificant Life in the Multiverse)/Thomas mot Thomas (en sensasjonell teori om det ubetydelige livet i multiverset) (netis olemas)
Ticket to paradise (netis olemas)
Tisdagsklubben (netis olemas)
Trip (netis olemas)
UFO Sverige (netis olemas)
Unrest
Ur spår (netis olemas)
White dog/Chien blanc (netis olemas)
Who wants to live forever?
Will-o'-the Wisp/Fogo-Fatuo
Vortex (netis olemas)
3 kommentaari:
Super! Selle viimase lõiguga panid Sa küll täppi!!! :D:D:D Ma olen väga hea meelega üks väga tore inimene ja Sa tõid selle kirjutisega tõepoolest naeratuse huulile, eh, "naeratus" on vähe öeldud, naersin ikka kohe päris häälekalt!:D:D:D
Nii tore on armastada ja olla õnnelik, eks ole!?!
Siis tahaks kogu maailma emmata ja kõigile naeratada ja tunnedki, et armastadki kõiki ja kõike ja nii hea on olla!!!
Ja kui särad ise ning kiirgad armastust, siis saad seda ka vastu, selles on Sul igal juhul õigus! :)
Numeroloogia järgi on minu elu ülesanne leida armastust ja seda kõigile jagada - vahel tunnen küll iga rakuga, et see on just see, mis on minu jaoks! :)
Kui jagad armastust, saad seda ka vastu ja maailm on õnnelikum!
Sinu moto töötab igal juhul! :)
Sulle soovin jätkuvat armastust ja siis saad seda ka suurtes kogustes vastu, siis on Sul jälle teistele jagada palju armastust ja siis saad seda ka ise suurtes kogustes vastu ja nii see ring katkematult käib... :) Väga ilus on selline elu, eks?! :)
Tegid tuju heaks! Aitäh!!!! :)
Vabandust, unustasin küsida - miks Sa ometi öösiti ei maga??? :)
Mul on nii hea meel! Aitäh armsa sõnumi eest!
Me kõik oleme armastust väärt ja nii tore on ju armastusekillukesi leida, eriti kohtadest kus kohast neid leida ei oskakski. Nii rõõmsatest kui kurbadest hetkedest, nii lähedastelt kui kaugetelt inimestelt, nii suurt armastust kui ka pisikesi, vaevalt märgatavaid terasid. Sellepärast ma ka selle jutu blogisse kirjutasin. Et kes teab...võibolla keegi leiab sealt endale oma pisikese "killukese". Sõnad tulid ju otse südamest...
Aga miks ma öösel ei maga...seda ma ise ka ei tea...nii palju põnevat on vaja teha, palju olulist mõelda...ja pingelise töö ning kolme lapse kõrvalt ongi need öised hetked ainsad, kui saab oma mõtetega olla kahekesi...võibolla sellepärast? Aga ilmselt tuleneb see ikka tunnetest. Ma õhtul lähen mõne raamatu, filmi, telesaate, teatri või mõne muu elamuse või miks ka mitte mõne blogi-loo või lihtsalt K-ga vestluse peale nii keema, et maha jahtumiseks on vaja asjade üle mõelda ning see ei lasegi unel tulla.
Praegu ka kell juba varsti 1 (öösel).
Just lugesin näiteks Leelo Tungla ühe luuletuse (lastele lasteraamatust "Koer tunneb koera" ette). See on nii ilus ja kurb ja mingis mõttes leian paralleele oma tütrega, mis sellest, et tal koera ei ole ...kirjutan selle siia:
See tüdruk
See tüdruk on selline vaikne
ning nukrutseb ühtevalu.
Ta pole küll mingi paike,
aga lärmamist lihtsalt ei talu,
kuid klassis on kakskümmend neli
last, ja lisaks veel õpetaja...
Ükski tasane sõna või heli
jutusuminast läbi ei kaja.
Tal oleks küll kõnelda paljust,
aga häält tõsta justkui on häbi -
tüdruk pelgab, et suminast valjust
tema sõnad ei murra end läbi.
"Kas sul on nututuju?"
küsib naeratav õpetaja.
Tüdruk sosistab: "Mul on koju
kohe kiiresti minna nüüd vaja!"
Istub toas vaikselt ehakumal,
süles koera suur karvane pea...
Koer on koolitamata ja rumal,
aga lapse jaoks armas ja hea.
...
Jälle üks armastusekilluke, kas pole?! Unetuna öösel üleval olemiseks pole minu jaoks eriti rohkem vajagi...Ja lisaks miks ka mitte lihtsalt see fakt, et selle oma eilse öö jutuga ühe inimese, ehk siis Sinu tuju suutsin heaks teha! Mul on nii hea meel ja ei taha seda head tuju "maha magada".
Ja kuidas nende kildude all üldse uinuda...uni sellises killusajus lihtsalt ei tule :)
Nüüd kell ongi juba 1 läbi ja ma vägisi panen läpaka kaane kinni ja katsun pimedas ikkagi uinuda...koos kõikide nende "armastuse-kildudega" :)
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